dimple monkey tango man

so
like 2 weeks ago
im at work fixing my locker
on my day off
my fat chunky ssgt says to me

HIM "you gray belt?"
ME " nope"
HIM "well you goin to a course"
ME "ummm no."
HIM "yes you are bc im a ssgt and your not"

pretty lame right?
so now we are today
i have fun and exciting bruises
i hurt in fun and exciting places
all for a stupid belt

3 hours a day
6 days a week

grrrrr

in other news
to reenlist
i make a nice bonous
to the tune of $28,500
which is nice bc i was gonna re-enlist anyways
now thay wanna give me a happy little chunk of change too

hooray

and wait yet more news!
some time in early july
i get attached
to a new unit
for 45 days
during those days
ill be a gunner
on a hummer
ill be manning a 50 cal
and providing security
then after those 45 days
im back to my unit
and then
25 aug- 1 sept
ill be on deck and in the states
so yea

so i dont need anything
but i would love
if yall could send
a letter maybe
something that will make me smile
its the back end of the det
and its a little rough


Cpl Timothy J Wetherington
VMGR 252 DET A
UNIT 78037
FPO AE 09502-8037

This is the Squadron i work for. some cool shit if ya ask me



Marine Aerial Refueler Transport Squadron-252 [VMGR-252]
The Marine Aerial Refueler Transport Squadron 252 was formed June 1, 1928 and designated Headquarters Detachment 7M in San Diego, California. The Squadron was redesignated several times in the next decade; on March 1, 1929 to Utility Squadron 7M, to West Coast Expeditionary Force on January 8, 1934, and finally, to Marine Utility Squadron-2 on July 1, 1937.

Following World War II, the Squadron relocated to Cherry Point, North Carolina and was reassigned to Marine Aircraft Group-21, 2nd Marine Aircraft Wing. Further reassignments were to: Aircraft Fleet Marine Force Atlantic in June, 1947, Second Marine Aircraft Wing in October, 1947, Marine Aircraft Group-11 in 1950, Marine Aircraft Group-35 in 1953, Marine Wing Support Group-27 in 1959, and Marine Aircraft Group-14 in 1977.

During October 1961, the KC-130F Hercules became VMGR-252's squadron aircraft. With the advent of the KC-130F, the squadron's primary mission was changed to aerial refueling. On 1 February 1962, the Squadron received its present designation as Marine Aerial Refueler Transport Squadron 252.

In June 1962, VMGR-252 flew a medical team and eight tons of medical supplies into Honduras to help check an epidemic. In October of the same year, the Squadron found itself under heavy commitment in the Cuban Missile Crisis. Supplies and troops were flown into Cuba and American citizens were evacuated.

On 6 June 1964, a Squadron aircraft was piloted to an altitude above 44,000 feet to set a turbo-prop transport altitude record. On the same flight, nine volunteer parachutists set the world record for night group freefall parachute, thus taking the world record from the Russians who had held it since 1961. In December 1965, the KC-130 was used to refuel the CH-3 helicopter. This was the first time that a tanker-drogue system was used to refuel a helicopter.

In May of 1965, the Squadron was once again called upon to support an expeditionary force during the Dominican Republic crisis. During the first four days, the squadron flew 600 flight hours with 14 aircraft and airlifted over 1,000,000 pounds of cargo and 1,700 personnel. In October 1966, VMGR-252 was called upon to aid the citizens of Tampico, Mexico when they were victimized by flooding. The squadron flew thousands of pounds of cargo in support of this relief effort, code named Bold Party.

The late sixties and early seventies found VMGR-252 actively supporting American Forces in the Republic of Vietnam, transporting essential equipment, parts, and personnel. The early seventies also found VMGR-252 involved in the support and development of the AV-8A Harrier. In October of 1971, support equipment for the operation was airlifted from England to Beaufort, South Carolina. In August of 1973, VMGR-252 was involved in the research and development of safe and standardized aerial refueling procedures to be used with the Harrier.

In September of 1979, when Hurricane David wreaked havoc in the Caribbean, VMGR-252 was there with medical supplies, fuel, and other essential items to help relieve the burden of the distressed communities. In July of 1981, 471 Marines from the squadron were awarded the Humanitarian Service Medal for their efforts in aiding Cuban citizens who no longer wanted to live under the burden of Communism. The award was in recognition of the efforts they put forth during May and June of 1980 when Fidel Castro opened the gates to freedom and a mass exodus of freedom-seeking people took place.

In December 1988, VMGR-252 achieved another milestone in Marine Corps Aviation History. At the time, the squadron surpassed the landmark figure of 300,000 accident free flight hours and won the distinction of achieving the most accident-free flight hours of any squadron in the Marine Corps and the Navy.

The decade of the nineties started in earnest with VMGR-252 deploying aircraft to Freetown, Sierra Leone in support of 22 MEU which was deployed following civil unrest in nearby Liberia. Throughout the summer of 1990, squadron aircrew and personnel supported the MEU with aerial refueling and cargo missions.

With little time to rest and catch its breath, the squadron found itself facing an even greater challenge with the mobilization of forces for Operation Desert Shield to counter the aggression of the Iraqi government. In late August, two aircraft and crews were deployed to the Emirate of Bahrain to participate in local support operations. These two aircraft were augmented with four additional KC-130's and 120 personnel in December to form VMGR-252 Detachment Alpha. When Operation Desert Storm commenced on 16 January 1991, the detachment transitioned to combat operations and provided over 10 million pounds of fuel to strike aircraft during the course of 937 combat sorties.

Concurrent with operations in support of Desert Storm, VMGR-252 was also providing assets to cover other potential hot spots around the globe. Aircraft were sent to Guantanamo Bay, Cuba during the Haitian elections, and another three-plane detachment was deployed to Rota, Spain as part of an anti-terrorist contingency.

From 29 through 31 August, 1992, VMGR-252 flew round the clock flight operations in support of Hurricane Andrew relief efforts. The squadron also took part in Marine and joint exercises through 1994 including: Display Determination in Turkey, Ocean Venture in Puerto Rico, the Amphibious Warfare Presentation Team tour of the western Pacific, Operation Cope Thunder in Alaska, 2DMAW Bermuda Strikes, Agile Provider, and Coronet West, providing logistics support for VMFA-242 from El Toro to Iwakuni, Japan. VMGR-252 has also participated in three Hornet's Nest exercises involving large formation aerial refueling of F/A-18's, EA-6B's, and F-14's.

In March, 1994 an aircrew was sent to Europe to participate in the 50th anniversary of the invasion of Normandy. In June, 1994 a detachment from VMGR-252 deployed to Mombasa, Kenya in support of Operations Continue Hope and Support Hope, delivering over 1.25 million pounds of fuel to the 15 and 22 MEUs.

In March of 1995 the squadron continued its support of Operation Deny Flight by deploying two aircraft to Italy. Throughout the year, the squadron was tasked with supplying an aircraft in support of Mode VIII, an exercise to recover astronauts in the event of a forced bailout from the Space Shuttle. In July, VMGR-252 provided support for Operation Cope Thunder in Eielson, Alaska. The Squadron also deployed one aircraft to Keflavik, Iceland for a 24 hour search and rescue alert mission. Additionally, during July, eleven sorties were launched to support the 26 MEU SOCEX and SACEX 2-95 involving Rapid Ground Refueling.

On August 4th, 1995, the Squadron was presented with the Chief of Naval Operations' Aviation Safety Award for calendar year 1994. During the same month, four sorties were launched to perform the first ever training with Marine KC-130 Aircraft Survivability Equipment. Concurrent testing of a Rapid Action Maintenance Engineering Change of ALE-39 Chaff Dispensers was also initiated. In September, VMGR-252 accepted two of the most coveted awards a Marine squadron can receive: The Marine Corps Aviation Association's Awards of the Commandant's Aviation Trophy for 1995 and the Henry Wildfang Award for Aerial Refueler Transport Squadron of the Year.

In 1996 VMGR-252 continued its support of Operation Deny Flight in Aviano, Italy. Other exercises VMGR-252 supported in the spring of 1996 included Operation Assured Response in Rota, Spain; Roving Fire in Greenwood, Canada; and Operation Purple Star, a combined exercise with British forces. In the fall, VMGR-252 provided cargo movement in support of Operation Decisive Edge, and mass evacuations in support of Operations Assured Response and Quick Response throughout Africa.

In 1997 VMGR-252 lead the Marine KC-130 fleet in providing versatility and innovation to the Marine Air-Ground Task Force commander. VMGR-252 performed cargo movement in support of Operation Decisive Edge in Aviano, Italy and Operation Guardian Retrieval in Brazzaville, Congo; Fixed Wing Aerial Refueling in support of Silver Wake in Albania and Noble Obelisk in Sierra Leone; and Helicopter Aerial Refueling in support of search and rescue operations for the Space Shuttle program and Operation Northern Watch in Incirlik, Turkey. The squadron's performance lead to the Marine Corps Aviation Association awarding VMGR-252 the Henry Wildfang Award for Aerial Refueler Transport Squadron of the Year in recognition of the most outstanding Marine Aerial Refueler Transport Squadron in Marine Aviation.

In March 1998 VMGR-252 deployed two aircraft and crews to Brindisi, Italy for support of the 26 MEU in Operation Dynamic Response. The missions involved rapid ground refueling, aerial refueling and logistics movements in and out of the former Yugoslavia. In April, "Otis" deployed for 4 months to Incirlik, Turkey to provide combat search and rescue for Operation Northern Watch. June and July saw "Otis" supporting the 26 MEU in Operation Deliberate Falcon/Determined Force in Sigonella, Italy. Missions for this operation included fixed and helicopter refueling as well as assault support throughout the European theater. 1998 ended with VMGR-252 deploying to Incirlik, Turkey once again to support Operation Northern Watch.

During 1999 "Otis" continued its essential support by positioning Marines and their combat equipment to multiple locations in theater for Operation Noble Anvil/ALLIED FORCE. Sorties continued to be flown in support of OPERATION NORTHERN WATCH. Marine KC-130s became a common sight at many European airfields, among such include Aviano, Bari, Incirlik and Taszar. The squadron maintained a presence in theater providing aerial refueling and FISDU support throughout the duration of the NATO combat operations which include the spans of both 24 and 26 MEU. VMGR-252 support was also devoted to in CONUS for work up exercises for 22, 24, and 26 MEU.

VMGR-252 has been in continuous service for 72 years. The squadron has flown 30 different types of aircraft and since receipt of the first KC-130, has continued to achieve many firsts in Marine Corps Aviation. The first Night Vision Goggle landing in a Marine Corps KC-130 was accomplished by a squadron aircraft and crew in May 1990. The squadron is poised to accept the first KC-130J aircraft and employ night system upgrades to it's existing aircraft. To date, VMGR-252 has flown over 369,000 class-A mishap free flight hours in support of Marines and their missions around the World.

The mission of VMGR-252, the oldest continually active squadron in the history of the Marine Corps, is to provide assault transport of personnel, equipment, supplies, and to provide aerial refueling service to fixed and rotary wing aircraft. Special tasks of the squadron are performed day and night, in all weather conditions. The squadron strength varies, but it includes approximately 240 enlisted Marines, 50 officers, and 14 aircraft.

so im at work
nothin unusal
its like 4 am
im in a little room
alone
8 hours left
the sun will be up in 2
then its chow time
then 6 hours later
i get to go home
and sleep

behold my day to day

i eat
i sleep
i work

so iraq is dull
and its finialy got hot
like low 90s
0% humidity
feels like a hair dryer
on my body
all day

even now
@4 am
its toasty out
prolly 85 or higher

so iv got less than 3 months
left here
iv got my re-enlistment papers
now i just need to hear back
if they let me do it
out here
ill make a nice chunk of change
to take home tax free
but i dunno whats gonna happen
umm lemmie think

so home is gonna be nice
i miss it
i miss my friends
my places
the food
the simple fact
that i can take a 10 min shower
and not get bitched at
its gonna be nice........

toby keith came to base
did a concert

i didnt go
not my thing
and i was sleeping off an 18 hour shift
so yea
i miss good shows
i HAVE to find a good one to go to
if i dont i might loose my mind a little
well more than already


so a lovley young lady has taken intrest in me
i dunno how it will work out
but good i hope


bein out here iv seen who my friends are
and who my real friends are
its nice when i get random letters
or emails
just makin sure i dont come unglued
less than 3 more months


so i thought about it
and for the 4 yrs iv been in
iv been in a foreign country
2 and half of em
not too bad i guess
seen the world
seen some cool shit
seen combat
all b4 i was 23

i think its nifty

well i got nothin else really


La vita è un giardino, lei deve scavarlo.
life is a garden, you have to dig it.


:D
Timmy

so hi every one
its me
i havent posted in a
LONG TIME
and i thought it might be a good idea to do so
so iraq is dusty
and boring
and untill today
nice weatherd
well now its hot and i love it
people look like thye are dying, i am all happy go lucky
its good times i got to say

i got some new toys
got a canon power shot A640.
10 mega pixel
its nifty
i wanted a rebel xdi
but it was a bit too expensive for me
ummm im paying off bills
and i am in the process of
re-enlisting

i know i know i know
some of you would rather i come home
but iv got a good thing and
i love what im doing
and it seems to be well
suited for my punk ass
and besides
i look too damn good in my blues to
give em up ya know what i mean?

ummm gettin the jeep when i get back
gettin dad a super charger
and if i do the re-enlist thing out here
ill have a big chunk of change
to put away and save

well yea thats all now really
im almost to the half way point of this deployment
so ill be home in like 3 some odd months

:D
Timmy

so its 1 am and it seems i cant sleep
iv been a Marine for nearly 3 and half yrs
iv seen other countries
iv lived in japan for 2 yrs
iv shot guns
iv thrown grenades
iv been a major part of a humanitarian relief.
sorry make that 4 of them

iv seen dead bodies
iv had buddies die
iv made new friends
iv made new enemies


for a 22 year old kid
iv seen alot
and felt even more
but this...this is new


so i thought.


im about to embark on something new
im going to Iraq
now iv been preparing for this for a while
and its not that im afraid
its just a new feeling
im about to go to a combat zone
im gonna do a job
and then come home

but then i thought about it more
and more
and more
and then i knew
where i had felt this before


august 4th 2003

the day b4 i left for boot camp
i had no idea what to expect
somthin new and exciting
but the more i think about it
i see it more and more
its the same feeling.



in atrum ego vado ignarus quis ut specto
"into the dark i go not knowing what to expect"

so today was so cold
that i had the following on:

boots
2 pairs of socks
thermal undies
sweat pants
skivvy shirt
pull over thinggy
cover alls
and gortex

i was still pretty friggina cold

now see my natural instinct is to go south
bc i dont like cold
see, goin south id good bc its warm

warm=good

but im here for a while
now this is all well and good
but then i heard somthin
somthin that i hoped to avoid

"yea there is suppost to be snow on Thursday"

fuck snow and all its cold and wetness
i think im gonna go and hibernate



so i think im a little sick
nothin major
but im tryin to not go to medical
they suck there
i love docs
but the system they have is horrible


so iraq is still where ill be in feb.
ill need to upload stuffs to youtube or google
bc i have a nice video camra

http://a6.vox.com/6a00c22523794b8e1d00cdf7f01e26094f-500pi

thats what it looks like

well im gonna

so this is my update.
i dont know who reads it
but here it is

so im in NC now
and im a Cpl now
and i have a big truck
and umm yea

i ahve no life really
but im happy and that works for me
im goin to iraq in feb
and ill be there for 6 months

im gonna have a pet of some kind
im sure there are kritters out there that would look funny on a leash
umm yea fun and good times



:D
Timmy

so i wake @ 0645 and check in at work
let em know im alive
i call
i go back to bed
i get called back
they need a duty driver
not a fuckin chance
so i inform them
or the demise of my licence
its was destroyed
so this pisses em off
so i get called into work
i had 2 hours of sleep mind you
well now im at work
Sgt Moore(on) decides that
i need to be fucked with
bc i am stil on island
WTF
so i get to clean out hanger door tracks
then i get pulled to be on a
lame ass workin party
im senior
so im in charge
got it all taken care of
not a biggie
then Sgt Moore(on)
has me sweep beind the hanger
prolly 100 feet of gutter
curb
and building
done
then its clear out all the sand bags
so i move a huge pile of sand
bc all the bags were rotting away
this gets done too its rounds about 1600 now
so i go in side
wait for pass down
"day crew go home, you too Wetheirngton"
sweet
"youll be here in camies @ 0645 tommaor"
fuck
all i wanted to do was enjoy a few days of nothing
since im stuck here
nope not in his world
he goes out of his way to fuck with me
and b/c hes a sgt, he wont talk to me
man to man
he says i dont rate to talk to him
2 days more
well 1 more
bc i will be gettin orders
AND TICKETS
FROM IPAC
tommaro afternoon
and i have decided that when
i get my orders and tickets
i will be a ghost
nothin more
i will move out of my room
i will disapear
i will not be seen by 152
no more games
im not gonna call
im not gonna do shit
im gonna simply
>< POOF ><
and keep it that way till i fly

btw okinawa
to seattle
to new bern

thats my basic itinary
i think
omg i cant wait
im loosin it

my only light @ the end of the tunnel
is knowing that its almost over
no more okinawa
ill have freedom
and a new set of asshole bosses
to deal with

it has now been 732 days sinc i saw america
its been too long

so it is sunday the 20th
yesterday was my flight date
but i didnt have tickets
bc ipac sucks big time
tommaro is the 21st
2 yrs to the day that iv been on okinawa
i have been all checked out
i have no ties here
my command doesnt even know im still here
so i took advantage of my "last weekend"
and went out to dinner
omg the food was soo good
watched movies and got a little drunk
got up saterday and went to the beach
then went ice skatin
i fell down
a few times
no injurys
came home and got very drunk
i put everyone to bed
every one = ben, anna, pete, heather, walker, michelle
then i continued my drinkin
till i couldent see straight
and went to bed
today went to the flightline fair
saw some amazing cars
taged a A/F chopper
saw some fire works
watched some movies
all in all it was a good weekend
but my back hurts a ton
i dunno why

so too much to report on at this point
well thats all folks

its nearly 3 am
work was work
nights like this wear me down
i worked alot
and got no where
i like it when
somthin gets finished
like a big job
oh well another night
im not in a "bad" mood
but its not a good one
im not happy
but not unhappy
its creepy
so my adventures last week
were finished up
with a great day of
12g shot guns
had to deal with a few drills
but it was fun
i am a gun junky
it made me happy
cant with to get back
to amerika
where i can go to the range
in town
and blow off the world
the weather has been so nice here
a bit hot
but sunny and perfect beach days
took a few peoples there this weekend
good times
made an attempt to drink on sat night
it turned into me baby sittin people
and the filling them in
the next moring
on how they got back to their
own beds
lol 2 of em were some rather
attractive young ladies
the druk boys were mad @ me
i didnt czfre
my buzz was gone
and i had not reguard to anyones elses
played twister
i whiped ass 5 games inna row
then the baby oil was added
i still ruled as champ
it was a nice weekend
i haope the next one will be too
i have a tatoo appt.
on friday
then i have to go to work
lame
but oh well it happens
my buddy has his 21st birthday on sat
so im gonna take him out for that
maybe buy him a hooker or somthin lol
thats all for this entry


AUT VINCER
AUT MORI
its latin

so tis week has been
kinda rough
i was appointed to be come
ASF
AUX. Security Forces
so far we got our asses wore out
on Monday
on Tuesday
we did 1000 sit ups
400 4 count flutter kicks
and 200 push ups
that hurt
we have bee sprayed with
OC
it is hell in a bottle
it is liquid fire
for an hour it will burn
it blinds you
it hurts
this morning we did a sheild run
*sheild run is a run that you carry
riot sheilds
shot guns
and m16s*
it too hurt
inbetween these things we have been in classes
learing all sorts of stuff
toothe finial test today
got like a 92
tommaro is shot gun day
it will be a good day
:D
im cooked ......again
and there are bruses on my arms
but im ot tellin where they came from
;)
well thats all

sunday morning
almost 3 am
i have duty in 4 hours
im a driver
for the group
i have a big ass truck to drive
i am goin to show up, and crash
bc i dont sleep at night now
its really bad
i dont sleep longer than 3-4 hours
i think im commin apart
but the glue that my faher instilled
the can do
will do anyhitng mind set
is holding me together
i have less than 70 days untill im home in the states.
70 fuckin days
its almost seems liek it will never get here
now i have several reasons to go home
to go see my folks, and peoples back home
these peoples have been there no matter what
and i think them for it
they are what hold me together
they are the reason
at one point i was in it for me
then it was for another
now its for everyone who cares about me

i am only a man
i can deal with only so much
have searched for yrs to find a girl
one that was all that i could hope for
smart funny tough faithful
and loves for me for all that is me
but find her and all is good
then the one thing in the world that could cause
me to faulter
cause me to question myself
is the one thing that we have
a catastrophic difference of opnion
it hits me soo hard
that she will fight so much about this
that all i see is history repeating

a long time ago i made a set of rules for my self
and i stuck by them
every time i broke a rule,
somthing always happend
hence the rule was there to guard against
such rules as i will not change my self for a girl
i will not change my out look
or my beliefs
i will not date a girl more than one time
bc we split for a reason
it was enough to break up one time
it will do it again

those apply here
i will not change where i stand
i will not compramise
i will not accept it
i know deep down inside that i cant 100%
trust you will be faithful
it hurts me more than you know
and it is not a choice i want to make but i have to

i wont change you
i wont change neither shall you
for me to make you change make me an asshole
and im not

i dont know what to tell you other than
i hope you find another guy out there
who will love you how you need
and who will be open minded about this
and is better than i am

i am not so open minded about it
this is bigger than i am
there is no way that our opinions
could survive in a relationship
it will not work
no matter how much we try

i have never had to do this
iv also never had to type threw tears
but i am now
we cant be together
i dont know what we can be
but i can hope for the best
and be braced for the worst






i type things like that when im not in a terriable fuckin mood. that is my CLEAN BREAK. FUCK THAT SHIT. NOW ITS GAME ON MY WORLD HAS BEEN FUCKED WITH TOO MANY TIMES FOR ME TO BE WILLING TO LET IT HAPPENA AGAIN.HOLY FUCKING SHIT. ITS NOT YOU ITS ME BLAH BLAH I NEED A CCLEAN BREAK
IM ALWAYS CONCERNED ABOUT OTHERS
NOT ANY MORE
NOW I AM STRIKING BACK
IM SAD DEPRESSED MISERABLE ANS STEADLY GETTIN PISSED OFF
THIS SI A HELL OFA FEELING ITS MAKES ME SHAKE, MY VISION BLUR AND MY HEART RACE
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
I WANTR TYO HURT PEOPLE MY SELF EVERYONEAROUND ME
TO SEE IF THEY LIKE THA PAIN
I SURE AS FUCK DONT
WHY ME
WOW SO THIS IS 2 TIMES
2 MOTHER FUCKIN TIMES YOU HAVE DOINE THIS TO ME
ITS OVER
NEVER AGAIN NOTHING
I AM NOT THE GUY I WAS
YOU HAVE CHANGED ME IF NOT RUINED ME FOR ALL THE OTHER GIRLSL
FUCK THIS
86 FUCKIN DAYS
WOW
IF I COULD BE SEEN RIGHT IM COMMIN UNGLUED
BAD
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO OR HOW TO REZACT TO IT
FUCK IT




FUCK IT IM OUT

so this weekend i went camping.
it was intresting
i went with people not from my unit
with people that i didnt know
and had a good time
i had a annoying drunk tent mate....
but i worked past that
it rained
it flooded
i lead the group up a hill
no more flooding
saw people
saw people with way too little clothing on
the group i was with drank alot
i ddint know a group of 8
could consume so much beer
holy cow
i didnt drink
they assumed i was a light weight
i shot gunned a beer
2 sec
they left me alone about it
saw people passed out
on the hill
on the tents
on cars
rather amuesing
got rained on rather hard today
i got new shorts, towel and a jacket
all rip curl
i look good in board shorts
i didnt get burned
the sun wasent out nearly enough
but now im back
on base
went to a concert tonight
at a bar
its called fuji fest
i went last yr too
the bands are nifty
didnt drink there either
just water


i got contacts
its strange no to have glasses on
but i love em
i look diff
but its all good
its a minor ego booster too
*iv got a few complaments*
so yea im not blind and stuff
went camping
went to a rock show
ate ice cream
it has been a good few days
83 days left

i am only a man
i can deal with only so much
have searched for yrs to find a girl
one that was all that i could hope for
smart funny tough faithful
and loves for me for all that is me
but find her and all is good
then the one thing in the world that could cause
me to faulter
cause me to question myself
is the one thing that we have
a catastrophic difference of opnion
it hits me soo hard
that she will fight so much about this
that all i see is history repeating

a long time ago i made a set of rules for my self
and i stuck by them
every time i broke a rule,
somthing always happend
hence the rule was there to guard against
such rules as i will not change my self for a girl
i will not change my out look
or my beliefs
i will not date a girl more than one time
bc we split for a reason
it was enough to break up one time
it will do it again

those apply here
i will not change where i stand
i will not compramise
i will not accept it
i know deep down inside that i cant 100%
trust you will be faithful
it hurts me more than you know
and it is not a choice i want to make but i have to

i wont change you
i wont change neither shall you
for me to make you change make me an asshole
and im not

i dont know what to tell you other than
i hope you find another guy out there
who will love you how you need
and who will be open minded about this
and is better than i am

i am not so open minded about it
this is bigger than i am
there is no way that our opinions
could survive in a relationship
it will not work
no matter how much we try

i have never had to do this
iv also never had to type threw tears
but i am now
we cant be together
i dont know what we can be
but i can hope for the best
and be braced for the worst

this is shit
im sad
depressed
and on the verge of snapping
i want to go home
but its last place i want to be
i want to die
but there is so much more life in me
i run
and get nowhere
everything goes great and in one conversation
goes to shit
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well its christmas again
another one ill spend in in the Marines
thats 3 so far
its startling how long its been and how long it seams
i have lots of lights up im my room
i have a tree
its 2 feet tall
very charle brown
its the 23rd
im on duty
as a driver
strangly enough i have nothing to drive
so i sit
on my ass
waiting for the phone to ring
so i can tell the person that i dont have anyway to help them
been watchin movies
i think im gonna loose my mind
im so board
my a- driver is asleep
he snors
and the guy in charge
a capt somthin-or-other
is out doing stuff
so im left with the sounds of my own thoughts in my head
i got my self a gift
a nice watch
citizen
i hate that im not home to see everyone
i miss yall so much
but i know this will not be the last holidat i spend
away from all of you
its lame i know but its the way it is
well i bid all a merry christmas







The embers glowed softly, and in their dim light,
I gazed round the room and I cherished the sight.

My wife was asleep, her head on my chest,

My daughter beside me, angelic in rest.

Outside the snow fell, a blanket of white

transforming the yard to a winter delight.

The sparkling lights in the tree I believe,

Completed the magic that was Christmas Eve.

My eyelids were heavy, my breathing was deep,

Secure and surrounded by love I would sleep.

In perfect contentment, or so it would seem,

So I slumbered, perhaps I started to dream.

The sound wasn't loud, and it wasn't too near,

But I opened my eyes when it tickled my ear.

Perhaps just a cough, I didn't quite know,

Then the sure sound of footsteps outside in the snow.

My soul gave a tremble, I struggled to hear,

And I crept to the door just to see who was near.

Standing out in the cold and the dark of the night,

a lone figure stood, his face weary and tight.

A soldier, I puzzled, some twenty years old,

Perhaps a Marine, huddled here in the cold.

Alone in the dark, he looked up and smiled,

Standing watch over me, and my wife and child.

"What are you doing?" I asked without fear,

"Come in this moment, it's freezing out here!

Put down your pack, brush the snow from your sleeve,


You should be at home on a cold Christmas Eve!"

For barely a moment I saw his eyes shift,

Away from the cold and the snow blown in drifts.

To the window that danced with a warm fire's light.

Then he sighed and he said "It's really all right,

I'm out here by choice. I'm here every night."

"It's my duty to stand at the front of the line,

That separates you from the darkest of times.

No one had to ask or beg or implore me,

I'm proud to stand here like my fathers before me.

My Gramps died at 'Pearl on a day December,"

Then he sighed, "That's a Christmas 'Gram always remembers."

My dad stood his watch in the jungles of 'Nam',

And now it is my turn and so, here I am.

I've not seen my own son in more than a while,

But my wife sends me pictures, he's sure got her smile.


Then he bent and he carefully pulled from his bag,

The red, white, and blue... an American flag.

"I can live through the cold and the being alone,

Away from my family, my house and my home.

I can stand at my post through the rain and the sleet,

I can sleep in a foxhole with little to eat.

I can carry the weight of killing another,

Or lay down my life with my sister and brother..

Who stand at the front against any and all,

To ensure for all time that this flag will not fall."

"So go back inside," he said, "harbor no fright,

Your family is waiting and I'll be all right."

"But isn't there something I can do, at the least,

Give you money," I asked, "or prepare you a feast?"

It seems all too little for all that you've done,

For being away from your wife and your son."

Then his eye welled a tear that held no regret,

"Just tell us you love us, and never forget.

To fight for our rights back at home while we're gone,

To stand your own watch, no matter how long.

For when we come home, either standing or dead,

To know you remember we fought and we bled.

Is payment enough, and with that we will trust,

That we mattered to you as you mattered to us.




MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIENDS
THERE ARE REASONS I DO WHAT I DO


NOW WHERE DID I PUT THAT NAUGHTY GIRLS LIST........

*INSERT REALLY GOOD AND INTRESTING ENTRY HERE*

ok so iv be neglecting my live journal bc well i dunno.
so iv also bee flying all over the place
iv been to the phillapines* to save a broken plane
then i went home for like 2 days
now im in mainland japan
on mon i think im goin to wake island
then at some point in goin to korea
i think yall should look up stff about wake isalnd
its some more sacred ground for Marines
iwo jima is too
in fact you should lear all about both of them
trust me
and i almost died......again
phenumona this time
coughing up blood and such
but im a bad ass so im not botherd by this little set back
ok this has been your update





THE GREAT AND MIGHTY ARDVARKMAN